Raining day

a raining day~~~
for the first time i saw the speed of the rain
look far and thought can be avoid from it
but then without few second its catch out me
no matter how i speeding still useless
suddenly found i m so stupid and don't understand so why should i run faster so
fate want it to come no matter how we avoid it still will be come to us so
why don't we unrestrained and enjoy in the agony and happiness on it
let the rain hit on the face, let the rain to water our body
let the rain to wash our brain, let the rain bring over all the unhappy
let everything come and go naturally~~~














*i observed rain came from the gate of school within few second already reach to my room

slowly become Habit

sunrise sunset everyday
time flow like waterfall without turning back
without realizing I' m used to everything new at here
without realizing our friendship already so many years
without realizing you all already change my viewing point
Suddenly i found that all without realizing become my habit
staying in the room when there is no class
waiting call and hang on call with you all
willing to meet you guys and together with you all
all this is so used to me and become my habit
time that me realize already to late for change just like drunk
the feel that don't want to change if suddenly change will be feel uncomfortable

used = a part of ours

today very tired again look outside from the window
only got the light and the darkness who with me
all the thing seen like only special for me a person, only for me
no matter the light who is opened and the darkness sky


i used to be stay in room, stay in my own world and enjoy myself
something is hard to change, even change also not one or 2 days can be done
some person to us, we used to be depended on them
some lifestyle to us, we used to be at certain situation
some face of us, we used to be show to certain people
some thing to us, we totally a part of ours cannot be remove
that is the memory that we have and used to be with it
they become a part of our lifestyle even can said a part of us
without them, it might not to consider a complete of us

Trouble Life

Suddenly a question that asked by a friend come in my mind
the same question that being asked for several times
but then every time only perfunctory on it
open up the window and put the head outside the window
let the cold wind blow on my face continuous
rise up my head and look at the shining star hang on the sky
don't understand what i want and mind blurred
feel like got something that not clear and forgotten
repeatably think on it but still cannot get an answer
why don't understand must understand it only will happy?
why blurred must be after clear only can get the target?

trouble life~~~

Home

few day before the heart like lost of somethings
and i don't know the reason for me to be mood-less
now is totally know so the reason because it is fulfill now
i miss home~~i miss johnny~~i miss family~~
even i know should be tired to sit bus for long journey
even i know come back i will be like in maid's life for one week
even i know a lot of job and task is waiting for me to solve
even i know confirm there are a lot of scold because of my finger injured
but i still rather to come back and accept all this challenge and this is my life
feel comfortable to be home now....













*this is the new family member girl girl puppy~~