I thought.....

I thought I would be good, I thought would be cool,
I thought I not too concerned about it, I thought won't sad, mad, heart pain
I thought I would be very strong to live alone, but it seems I no longer able to laugh when I' m alone
specially the time when i was alone the tears will be like the waves came surging like rough
I thought tears sliding down because of gravity
So I try a lot of silly way to avoid the tears fall from cheek
Finally I found a way that I thought it will work
that is as long as I lying back on the floor and the tear won't fall due to gravity level
I believed the tears will flow back into the eyes, will not slide down
but it still failed, it still has way to fall face again
Even is painful, even sad, even mad, but I still brave to face the decision i choose
Break your heart is my fault, I am sorry about it
I don't wish to hurt once again on you before I think about it detail, if yes so I won't be able to forgive myself for this time at all
I'm sorry about hurting you ~ ~