where you go, my heart?

everything is over now

but where are you, my heart?
why i still can't get you?
where did you go round and round?
are you lost the direction to go home?
or still stay at the place we busy war for last?
do you forget the war is already over?
please come back to the owner now....
there is empty inside her....

a CaLL

out of the study mood and spirit
still in the sadness of yesterday
totally give up to touch any book
the mood continue for whole day
things that to do all not relate to study
even there is another paper on coming Monday
the feel is like keep falling and falling to unknown deeper
the bright is getting further and further from me
need some energy to pull me up to the correct way
RING...RING....RING...
a call is saving me from keep falling
actually they did nothing to me at all beside listen to me
thanks for the understanding of you all
thanks that pull me up to the correct way again
thanks that call me release from keep falling~~

Ultimate Life

exhaust in the study schedule
now awake but still sleepy and blur
want to study actually but the spirit down
tasks is getting heavier and harder day by day
the brain is non stop thinking and absorbing
the eye keep reading note row by row
the hand is non stop pressing on the calculator
the coffee cup one is no more enough for me
keep fulfill it with green tea and coffee to refresh me from sleepy
my laptop is keep scare me with those window error and auto restart
my mouse also play emotion to me because non stop running
all this happened in a row to make going to be ultimate

HELP!!!!HELP!!!HELP!!!
i m going to be killed~~~

DRive Overnight

again a drive overnight case is started
the one who with me always the "old friend"
books and draft papers are surrounding
a cup of green tea that cooled
there is a white colour laptop on the small table
next to it always a bottle of "Hero" - eye mo & Yoko-Yoko
in the room 3 people are at their own corner with me
we all doing our own stuff, one sleep, one study, one watching movie
how about me?
I'm at a corner, relying on my bedstead, facing the wall
left hand is hugging a mashimaro that roommate throw to me just now
right hand is non stop playing with my mouse (hamster)
pressing on the calculator, keep drawing on the draft paper
my eyes was flying thought the note in front of laptop
haiz...today don't know need to stay until what time!!!
lucky still got the music that with me stay and strunggle to the unknown tomorrow~~~

JUmp out from Aquarium

finally, success jump out from the aquarium
that was fresh air breathing incoming to the lung
the tension on the shoulder was gone
mood from begin cloudy to storm then turn back to sunny
it was exactly on the time before try to start again the engine

quite a long time survive at the big aquarium
a lot that observed from this society since first come
don't know is hiding at the begin or changing at the end
totally two different faces for before and after
only time can prove how a person is that....

jump out from the aquarium, the only sentence want to say is
"recognize face not means that the heart so"

uNder recovery

already is the begin of November, this semester pass so fast
today i let myself to indulge, do whatever first come in my mind
1st of November is just passed, recall back what i had done
sleep should be the most of time in 24 hours
long time didn't sleep until naturally wake up
today the total time that i sleep is 15 hours
hehehe...totally under recovery of sleepping time.....
besides sleepping, i was under the heart recovery process
i was hang on call with the person i miss very much for time that i awake
willing to see them soon~~thanks for understanding of you all....
please wait me for another 3 weeks.....i will come to meet u...
wait me~~~wait me~~~wait for me~~~
don't go away so fast....if not i will sad because have to wait for 3 years later to see u