Walk across the WOrld

Lived for 25 years, suddenly have an intention come in mind
Wish to carry a bag and a camera to walk across the world every year
To start the collection of a footprint around the world

I want to use my legs steps by steps walk into every corner of the world
I want to use my eyes to view the every form in the world
I want to use my heart to feel the realistic of the culture and life

I'm not letting myself is live in a frame anymore just like the frog live in a well only can see the same pieces of sky
I'm letting my mind to go infinity, I'm letting my vision to see though the life
I'm letting myself to be achieve a formless air

I want to fly

without realize that a week just pass away, my life was surrounding by unfinished of task
beside working, reading, learning, and outing others of my time was use to sleep
everyday i was repeating listen to a song sang by xu fei- i want to be fly
slowly i was walking out from the sadness and upset,i very like lyric for the chorus of this song

"never mind doesn't matter what is lost, will be no trace

every time let the tear flow back to my heart

to irrigation the dream and create the miracle

i want to be strong and is not a shoulder for rely

a embrace is a place that can stop me from moving forward

world is so crowned and rush

use all the lonely time to applause for ourselves

I want to fly in the sky but not to borrow a pair of wing from others

freedom is a place that can be measure with distance

with the journey alone to gain the growth"

this song let me find back the direction, i know i did my best
doesn't matter what is the result, at least i won't feel sorry to myself
i won't regret, won't sadness and sorrow, because that was life
doesn't means that you work hard you must get something that you wish
I will work hard to irrigation and realize my dream and open up the miracle in future of my life~~~

At least that is a memories for you to recall the past

This world is amazing and fantastic so, the nature is keep changing. World is full with all kind of endless changes possible happened. Favourite for moment now might become dislike in a second after, love for moment now might became a hate, is yours but might happened not belong to you in time of blinding your eye. Is all happened might just in a short time until you didn't realize and believe that can happened just in a short while. So, I never force myself to get something that not belong to me and never put any effort for something that not always be mine no matter is memories, thing or human. This doesn't means I was cruel, but is the time to change me and the environment make me grow up. Suddenly, I understand that once was so beautiful but we never got the chance to back to the past. If now that is what you like or love,used all your strength to like or love until one day, you realized that you no longer like or love, I believe at least that is a memories for you to recall the past

"You will getting marry earlier than me....."

Yesterday I hear a sentence that make me confuse and think serious on it "you will getting marry earlier than me....." this sentence was said from a friend. After listen to it, I feel that uncomfortable and this make my brain to start work again to think out why he said so. A lot of memory in my mind was recalled. I found that in the previous of our human life mostly is living under the situation that taking care of others people because we stated by the rule and the view of moral from society.

If we do never change our mind set, I think no matter the previous history for 10 years in your past or the future 10 years for your life that still the same situation. You are all the time living in the situation that always needed to take care of others. This not a easy task but is a kind of heavy responsible or burden for us. Some of the time even make yourself lost because you are putting your center of life on others not to yourself.

Suddenly, I found that who can be parents were great. They were sacrificed half of their life to take care of the children, to grow them up, to educate them. For me, that was a really burden task and responsible for me because in the previous 10 years i was the center of rely for others. So, I knew it that the responsible to let others rely is not easy. So, I decided that in the future of 10 years I don't wish that to be the rely for others and I won't be the burden rely to others also. I preferred to live happy and alone without any burden on my shoulder.

eat, sleep, working......

what is doing everyday?
eat, sleep, working......
such a simple thing but it was tiring
no any personal time, freedom, space
since like leaving the unhappy house come to new house not much changed
don't want to live like that anymore without meaning, without time, without aim
is sick now, thought for whole night finally i decide to let myself indulgence for last today
let sick getting serious, let willfulness and coddles myself for one more day
tomorrow will never waste life and never wait for the coming same of myself for tomorrow














don't want waiting for the same tomorrow come, want to create another new, fresh and advance unknown tomorrow that waiting for me

Live in the moment, enjoy and appreciate in the moment and never wait for tomorrow

suddenly found the life is too short for us
even we work effort and plan good for future
but often a lot unexpected might breakout our plan so
today don't know what is the tomorrow happened even next second
the power of living is insignificant
may be in a second time unpredictable happened
we might disappear in the universe become a bubble, become air, become the past, become a memory
suddenly i see clear and even understand well a lot
we should live in the moment, enjoy and appreciate in the moment and never wait for tomorrow
shout out your love to the person that you love, let them know that you love them and don't let it become a sorry
use fully your strength to help more people that need our help
use the unknown time left that to walk and view the world change
to complete the commitment to my own-self, to the one i love, the world

*silently pray for the countless victims in Japan that you all can continue the journey of your life with happy and healthy. Please be glad that you all are alive to have the ability to make all impossible and time to change the world so

Voice of a Bird

in front of me are fog,i stop at the branches waiting because i can't see though the distinguish
my head keep turning left and right, i don't know the right direction of it to me
trying to away from the insecure feel but doesn't success
thinking to fly free in the sky, but I'm hesitant
open up my wings, but i' m looking back to the past of myself
how naive and happiness i can just bounce on the branches without any worry
but want me back to past of myself, i really not willing so
don't want to fear of loneliness by forever not leaving my home
don't want because of anyone and let go the chance to learn flying myself
don't want to fear of falling and let myself to avoid from facing
don't want because of any concerns that influence me for missed any rainbow at every corner of the life

may i give myself three wish for this year??

few days more will be rabbit year so, we are sending away tiger year and welcome to rabbit year
unconsciously I m going to experience the second rabbit year in my life so
may i asked the wish for who born in rabbit year will come true this year?
if really so, i won't greedy, i only want to give myself three wish for this year
.......recited silently my wish in my heart......
if there is a god, i hope that you can hear my desire
help me to identify the best direction for me, so that i won't lost and hovering in the crossroad
help me protect all my most treasured, so that i won't feel insecure and anxious
give me the strength and give me the courage to face whatever happened, so that i won't regret to make the decison

m i CHanged to another of me??

people telling me that i m changing
think think think.....erm...erm...erm
m i changed so from the previous of myself???
i don't think so...
may be yes for some small change due to environment
i admit that there is a small changing in myself
like in term of living style, such as
i change to schedule on time sleep and wake up
i change from need people wake up and now no so
i change from listening mandarin song but now less (signal receive radio mandarin no good here)
i change from join plan and now plan myself
even there is a small change due to environment but i m still myself
i m having fun for my new life at penang here and quite enjoy with it even sometimes will miss my home and my dog....
now i can make decision due to myself and thank to them for trust me so much in my decision.....

14/1/2011, friday

a lot happened on this date. firstly, early in the morning found that the house is being throw so act and modernist like a painting drawing on the wall.....














followed by the lunch should be take 90 minutes but we take 150 minute to finish because we go buy iphone 4 and this become a secret me and those guy with me go out eat. we told others that car cannot start after we ate....kekeke....














end of the days of friday is the annual dinner of my company internship.

entertainment myself in intern Boring Life

stay alone....
feel like the life is boring and meaningless
don't ever know how the day had pass
two weeks almost pass without realize
slowly getting used to live alone
now is really the life of living independent
not to rely of anyone on trivial thing like wake up me from sleep
and now i learn to solve problem my own-self, eat alone, cinema alone, shopping alone
but occasionally will feel bored and lonely
so will quietly reading, listen to music or cleaning up the room
or else will hang on call with family and friend to spend time on chatting
now i can live happiness and enjoy my life my own
later on i will start swing my wings and carry my bad to start my daily of travel alone soon

Effort to live in this moment

few minutes more will be tomorrow
the day after today everything will return to zero
give myself a chance to reset and restart
and fairly give the same chance to forgive others also
restart with a shining and energize of myself
let all the past become a legend
spend and living everything in front with colourful
everyday, every moment, every minute, every second
forget about the former beautiful shine and sadness
no matter the future is good time or adversity, effort to live in this moment

Give Up U

every time expectation exchange the disappointed
every time ask for waiting and the end up with waiting
every time is place in the situation passive
is tiring~~~think is time to clear the place so
to you, i do not have the expectation anymore
i don't want a endless waiting date
i don't want to lose until myself-esteem is gone
to you, i only can said sorry
i can't endless waiting a undefined date
i don't want to place at the passive position
i don't want only unilateral effort toward the hard task
and now i decided to give up you~~~~
give up my heart rely on you
give up my soul that hanging to you
give up my persistent to you

Body getting cold, as well as the heart so

Can you see it? Lightning is upsetting for me
Can you listen it? Thunder is shouting for my tired
Can you feel it? The inserts outside the window is crying for me
listening to the melody of the nature in my ears
looking at the realistic that not willing to accept
feeling the night wind that not worth for me
is myself think that the habit is usual and natural for me~~~
don't want to torture myself anymore, let myself to be happy
don't want to persistent anymore, let myself to open my mind
don't want to expect anymore, let myself away from getting disappoint again
"hu~~~hu~~~hu~~~"
wind, do you think that is right?
wind doesn't answer me, answering me is the sound of the wind
it blow until my body is getting cold and it cooling my heart as well
is time to put a jacket on my own, no longer rely on others

TiMe= the best teacher

along the way, time become the best teacher for me.
even he not teach me, even he not guide me, even he not assist me
but he let me to experience myself, to try, to face, to think by myself
the past experiences taught me and created the present of me now and i believe it will success the future of me
a lot of late and hesitant make me missed the best timing
although there are a lot regrets, but he let me understand that i m alive
because of him, i getting stronger
because of him, i learn to treasure and face the cruel of reality
because of him, i learn to face the lonely, learn to accept, learn to face myself honest

hom3

Home, always the most comfortable and most familiar
the time for waiting home is always long
the feel of happy and willing is fulfill when know there is people waiting us to be home
nothing is more comfortable compare to home, it let me find back the way of myself
it relax and release myself from anxious and stress life
no matter what is obstacle in front, at home i can be the real of myself
no need to face the truth in the untrue life
no need to accept the no pressure situation with invisible stress surrounding
no need force to show the untruth in the true life
home, always is the station for me to rest
let me shortly escape from those don't want to face
it as a balance point for me to achieve equilibrium and a neutral point
at least it can recharge myself for short term and give me the brave and courage to continue carry on the mask for now
the front road might be uncountable obstacles waiting for me
no matter how hard and how tired was the future road, it always give me the unlimited feel of safe...

We Believe, because of Love

every living in this world because of love
because of love, we are breathing now
because of love, we are relying on each others
because of love, we are trust in between
even how tough is the future, we believes that we will never give up easy
even you can't be my side in the future, i believe our love still alive
its will continuously growth
because of love, we learn to determine face
because of love, we know to care of others
because of love, we appreciate each others
because of love, we believes~~~

View Point

sunrise?sunset? is depend on personal view point on it~~~
a view point of a person can affect the fate of them
sometimes we want to grip it tied, but the most we grip the most we can't
the same to the thing we care, the most we care the harder to let go
why we can't just open our mind and heart to accept it?
thing is not belong to us how hard u tied and grip it won't be with us forever
although we can control our fate in our hands, but if we try our best and work for it
at last is fail there should no regret on it, the only thing left can do is accept it
open your heart and mind, accepted it~~~
i believe that the fate arrange must be a reason behind
it cause we fail to have the thing the most we want, but there might be another planning ready for us at the corner
belief tomorrow is even better,forgot the unfortunate yesterday, appreciate every second of today
nothing is forever unfortunate except you believe that is the way
nothing is forever sad except you give up yourself
nothing is forever impossible except you step in the same place never move
time is powerful, it change everything for every second running and its never stop for everyone
it only will give a wonderful future to the one who appreciate it
give a sadness to those always complaint and never forgot about yesterday

Tomorrow will be Better

feel surprise that human can live healthy when they are busy
but once they stop their step, everything trouble come against
it just like always feel missing something from their life
thing and thinking never thought before all come in mind
once stop just felt tired
just want one person alone go to a place without anyone take breathing deeply
let own-self felt the presence of myself
felt want to cry with loud, but doesn't want others to know that
so only can take a deep breath to swallow own voice and let tears fall quitely slide down
looking up at the sky take a smile to myself, believe tomorrow will be better~~~

concave?microscope?

when two people is far from each others, everything they look like a concave
every imperfect became perfect,they won't requested anything from opponent side
however, when this two people getting close, they look everything like through microscope
every imperfect is enlarging, they not willing to accommodate each others anymore
why do human always willing people surrounding to change?
even the strength at the beginning, after the time pass at last the advantages become the weakness
even though they are maintaining their own self, but then still get the complain
if they change getting worst then complain is acceptable
but then really not understand no change also make the fault decision?
or want to getting worst, others only will miss the previous of the person?
many people wish that others can follow up same step with ourselves
if really this happened so then forever won't be conflict or trouble
have you all think before, if everyone is ourselves,then that will be a situation that myself is no longer myself because this world have a billion million of myself
then what is the different between clone? we are no different between machine and clone
why do human hard to agree with others people?why do human always think that are right?
change others is no easy, but then we can change ourselves thinking
try open up our minds and use another angle to look at the same case that troubling you
may be will get something else not at the surface and get know more from it?why don't try on it?

Life is choice question

even though know that is the best
but sometimes we can't choose it due to a lot of reason
human's life a lot of time live under involuntarily
they have to consider and care about the surrounding them
once can care of a party might have to scarified another party
human's life have to live in the choice no matter like or dislike
even at last we still wish to get a perfect result at the end
but if can't make it, just choose the one most important and you want
at least at the end you won't be regret of your choice
road life is a choice question, we force to live between take and give
human's life is hard to avoid from a lot of regret and sorry
unfortunately, the life that have regrets only can be said is the perfect complete life circle~~~


* translate from the picture
in the pass,i wish myself talk in cool and popular
after, i wish myself to talk in humorous
now, i wish myself can talk all what i really want to say