Discover the rainbow after the rain

recalled back every yesterday,
live peaceful through every today,
fantasy every tomorrow




















I found that life can be so simple, and so complicated
Important is what the heart is willing, followed the step of it
no matter what is the final result, at least never regret to the choice even there might be happiness, madness, sadness, tough, and suffering......
this is not a torture, but a process of growing
thanks to those had attended in my life and added a beautiful rainbow memory in my diary of life
even though there might be thunderstorm days, but this make me more cherish the rainbow after the rain

eat, sleep, working......

what is doing everyday?
eat, sleep, working......
such a simple thing but it was tiring
no any personal time, freedom, space
since like leaving the unhappy house come to new house not much changed
don't want to live like that anymore without meaning, without time, without aim
is sick now, thought for whole night finally i decide to let myself indulgence for last today
let sick getting serious, let willfulness and coddles myself for one more day
tomorrow will never waste life and never wait for the coming same of myself for tomorrow














don't want waiting for the same tomorrow come, want to create another new, fresh and advance unknown tomorrow that waiting for me

Prunus Mume

Prunus Mume was special and different
its won't fight or compete beauty with others flower
its can be stay living alone in the winter cool weather
and only its are suit to describe the people who work harder to get success and achieve goals

never get any biting cold in the winter,
you won't got the Prunus Mume blossom in your nose

now, i just like the Prunus Mume living in the winter
facing against the cold winter make me feel trembling (over grim and unconcern situation)
begging myriad of the snow almost cause me to break my branch (over enthusiasm situation)
living in such a critical situation is totally trapped yourself into the whirlpool

i believe for a foolish and stupid person is stand in this situation in short while, they must know to guard against so
if long term is a kind of stress for mental damaged. So, the best is lives in simple and it more suit to normal human life....
really looking forward to the arrival of spring~~~

Recall back my memory

Today my aim was finish early and the time for my sleepy worm attack is not reachable yet. Suddenly found that recently my lifestyle is returning back to time that i was study in campus. Feel miss the time that together work overnight with room mate. Even everyone is just busying with own stuff but at least we were together. Even we non any communicated while we were doing our things but that the best feel that for me because they were surrounding of me. That is the time that i miss very much until now.

Yet,now i only can refreshment back to the time i was there and trying to imagine and get back the feel they were with me even just do nothing, just in sleeping, just facing in front of own laptop, just busying doing own homework or drama....eventually i still will feel better because they were just next to me....

Now the time can't be returning, we are stepping our step go forward our own road. I only can refresh back the time we had together for the pass in my memory....wishing everyone of them have a good life and healthy always..forever i will pray for them....

Even for the long time i was alone to living and i totally agree and admit that time to alone still the best choice for me, but living together in harmony with others weren't bad so. Even organism such as plant, animal, microorganism even spirit and soul also can't be separate from the living....everyone of it is playing and important characteristic......that is how the world for now, that is that nature.....

Voice of a Bird

in front of me are fog,i stop at the branches waiting because i can't see though the distinguish
my head keep turning left and right, i don't know the right direction of it to me
trying to away from the insecure feel but doesn't success
thinking to fly free in the sky, but I'm hesitant
open up my wings, but i' m looking back to the past of myself
how naive and happiness i can just bounce on the branches without any worry
but want me back to past of myself, i really not willing so
don't want to fear of loneliness by forever not leaving my home
don't want because of anyone and let go the chance to learn flying myself
don't want to fear of falling and let myself to avoid from facing
don't want because of any concerns that influence me for missed any rainbow at every corner of the life

m i CHanged to another of me??

people telling me that i m changing
think think think.....erm...erm...erm
m i changed so from the previous of myself???
i don't think so...
may be yes for some small change due to environment
i admit that there is a small changing in myself
like in term of living style, such as
i change to schedule on time sleep and wake up
i change from need people wake up and now no so
i change from listening mandarin song but now less (signal receive radio mandarin no good here)
i change from join plan and now plan myself
even there is a small change due to environment but i m still myself
i m having fun for my new life at penang here and quite enjoy with it even sometimes will miss my home and my dog....
now i can make decision due to myself and thank to them for trust me so much in my decision.....

14/1/2011, friday

a lot happened on this date. firstly, early in the morning found that the house is being throw so act and modernist like a painting drawing on the wall.....














followed by the lunch should be take 90 minutes but we take 150 minute to finish because we go buy iphone 4 and this become a secret me and those guy with me go out eat. we told others that car cannot start after we ate....kekeke....














end of the days of friday is the annual dinner of my company internship.

entertainment myself in intern Boring Life

stay alone....
feel like the life is boring and meaningless
don't ever know how the day had pass
two weeks almost pass without realize
slowly getting used to live alone
now is really the life of living independent
not to rely of anyone on trivial thing like wake up me from sleep
and now i learn to solve problem my own-self, eat alone, cinema alone, shopping alone
but occasionally will feel bored and lonely
so will quietly reading, listen to music or cleaning up the room
or else will hang on call with family and friend to spend time on chatting
now i can live happiness and enjoy my life my own
later on i will start swing my wings and carry my bad to start my daily of travel alone soon