Lazy Day

weather hot and stuffy
tired, mood less and sleepy
feel don't want to do anything
spinning left and right on bed
sleepy but cannot get in sleep
argh~~~~
all this is because of the weather fault
never mind.....kekeke


let me catch the chance and reason to be lazy for one day
more laziness, more happiness, less problem to think
today i let myself to willful laziness for one day
let mind rest for one day, let body rest for one day
let mood to take one whole day leave

~~~enjoy my Lazy Day~~~

heart control mind? mind control heart?

most people admit is a heart controller
sometimes even know is wrong to follow feeling in heart
but they will did so even know the ending will be trouble
they are not strong enough stand against it
is really hard for those who are heart controller
to stop having the feeling on someone
to stop caring or mind on something
even some times the mind controller also lose to the heart
they lost rational and just floating according to evil heart wish

heart control mind? mind control heart?
which should be better?
heart tell mind action according to feeling
mind tell heart action according to rational thinking

if you are suffer because of heart controlling your mind
just use your mind to control your heart
just need to enlarger and enlarger the evil and bad of the things
you will less suffer compare to follow your heart feeling
like the hourglass just reverse on it and let everything back to origin
if you still fail use your mind to control your heart feeling
just take throw away or leaving away from the things
like throwing the hourglass and destroy it, never let it come nearer to you

if you are suffer then use your mind to control your heart
the decision is on your own hand either you want continue suffer or let it be
no one can help you beside yourself really want to save yourself

Peaceful day

thought is a messy day start from miss bus case today
but now think back should be best thing to me
is a peaceful and quite day for me to be work alone
this is today progress success make 3 moulds still need another 9















own things must do by own self even is how hard is it
rely and depend people help only will fail ourselves
but create a chance to bring success to others
throw away the minded once fail forever will be loser



















this is the machine that make me injured but today i can drive and fully use on it i like and wish no one will noisy me!!! (today i m alone) kekeke~~~

High Heeled shoes

to me when listen the words "high heels", my mind will define that murder of my feet
before that i was very hated on them, so i cannot understand what is the reason people love them so much
this two days i was wear them for long hours walk and found it was not that much that i hate so
may be is the right time for me before this two days because i don't really open my heart try on them
now i found the tips and key to walk well with them, them for me now is no longer the obstacle cause me to fall~~~


i realize that the belief in heart can deeply affect our action
a lot of hesitation because not enough firm conviction
a lot of confuse because the target is not clear
a lot of mistake because ourselves is less rational and calm
as long as have the conviction and courage to overcome the determination to face the trouble, we will find the key so~~~

Being StroNG

unlucky incident has non stop looking after me
it seem like the wave that never stop
feel a bit helpless and only can withstand it with a smile
do not cry when hurt and injury
force to smile when there is painful
pretend to be strong when afraid
this all is to gain own strong and independent
because there is no one can always rely on another person


tired being strong, but must continue also~~
tonight go down walk walk for calm down myself
the weather down stair very cool and help relaxing my mind and heart~~

like?love?

"like is a intuition can be stopped and it can allows you to have yourself"
"love is a feeling there is unlimited and it can makes you lose yourself"

this two sentences were deep plant inside the heart and mind is like DNA. It is just like a system automatic reboot when every time in dangerous level. Whenever there is feeling of like, she is enjoying it silently. Just like the Cinderella when come to a certain time period the magic missing then everything will come back to origin. The auto reboot system will help her reboot everything even her feel to someone and let everything start from zero again~~~

is that her problem because of too rational? or she love herself more than others because she want to retains her own self?

Credibility

now only i realize that my credibility is so low
people prefer to believe others rhetoric rather than me
is my reputation is too bad?
is that so i always lie to you?
why cannot believe in me?
the rumor is scary even can destroy trust by one sentence
should be learn from experiences in the pass
but why so stupid and open the gate again let them hurt once
i won't be stupid again for this time and never to believe anymore
thanks to the one who create rumor and let me back to the way of protect myself again~~~
i will never expect any help from other anymore to let another rumor appear so....

discovery......lucky?unlucky?

don't know is lucky or unlucky?
my finger was injured in the accident
now i should say great fortune of misfortune in it!
the unfortunately is the accident cause i can't progress on my work
but the lucky is the injured is not so serious until my finger broken
for this incident, i investigated that the people surrounding worried about me so much
thanks for all who care of me and sorry about to make you worried so
i will try my best to protect myself and avoid myself from getting injury again

in this incident, i found out another different of myself. I discovered that i cannot see myself injury and i cannot see my own bloody. Even when the incident happened, i still can calm down and solve it until the end. But then when thing is solved, i would have the feel of faint and like over tired which have the feel want to fall asleep so.It is the same as the situation after i took injection, i will feel the same thing also.

is that because the blood suddenly loss from my body system? the lack of oxygen cause me faint?is that because i cannot believe that i will injury and i m bleeding?

i don't know is that the reason cause me faint so......
but i will take good care of myself and never let this face of myself appear again
i don't want to get injury, don't want bleeding, don't want to faint and don't want people surrounding worry about me anymore....
i won't again let this "weak" of myself appear again........NO NO NO

Metal Casting (Pattern Making)

how were i today? still down?
just can be describe in one word "lucky"
thing run on schedule so
unlucky and mood-less yesterday away so
lucky everything bad thing is away for me
if not i can't imagery what happened to my finger so
even now is get hurt a bit but no matter how still luck
if not sure i lost it or getting big wrap plaster on it

this is what i have done today (come back already 6:30pm skip jogging)
look like recently is what i wrote here is like diary
just report and write down what i have done

PEkan Hostel

a bit down today seem like everything running wrong
a bit dislike to myself may be emotional so today
may be again under stress so even first day
later have to investigate the problem cause
and find out the solution to throw away this moodless

today my psm progress totally dissapointed
i didn't nothing over there today and tomorrow need to rush
today go there only sit sit and listen the explanation for 20 minutes
then i found that a lot of thing that i done in psm 1 is totally not enough
this cause me hard in run the experiment so and need to redo all the paper work later
besides that is a news don't know is good or bad for me
"next week whole week lab is close" so again have to sit and do nothing at here
but i plan to do the paper work on that week
so even the experiment is not run but i know what should do so
hopefully can be done everything as the target state and can go home take a real rest

here is some pictures that i took today about the almost complete look of the pekan hostel
(like this only can said 70%, last time one hard to make others believe so)
there is the electric ready because i saw the fan in room is switch on
water i don't know la...cannot go in but then the size room should consider small a bit but for 2 people one room still consider acceptable















complete painted outlook new hostel pekan and with the tree is planted but still got a lot of part is not complete only can said 70 %






















this is the size of room the nearest to bus stop

Mashimaro and piggy with me

again only the mashimaro and piggy with me
even roommate is back but they busy with their work
one got class whole day for short semester (nancy)
one got lab to do for psm so whole day not here also ( sharon)
left me alone stay here room.....
















today i didn't really do anything so
just check out the timetable for bus schedule
then make a call to book for lab
evening jogging for 15minute finish one round

tomorrow is the new begin of my busy life
time only can pass fast and help me avoid the lonely feel
lonely feel that sitting alone in room for nothing
target lock : fyp perfect report, fyp experiment, jogging

New Fresh Environment

recently the weather here is damn hot
lucky today rain heavy but i fail to get nap so
the rain wash ground and reduce the hot temperature
now is the new and fresh environment
even is new but there is no one sharing this
never mind take it only special for me
treat it as a new begin and new target for me

target and mission:
a. run experiment psm
b. do report psm
c. jogging regularly
d. say "NO" to coffee,tea,Maggi
e. have a steamboat with roommates
f. have a memorable picture of roommates
g. make a last outing this semester with my roommates for 3 years

Chameleon

chameleon is a very special reptile
may be some people might think it was no personality
because it didn't have it own characteristic and own special
for me the special of it is it body skin which can change colour
it will change colour according to the surrounding environment
sometimes green, sometimes red, sometimes brown, sometimes black
it confuse you and cause you can't catch it, can't see it, can't find it











if human could be like that how nice so?
when i was happy, i crawling in the forest and the grass
when i was sad and in danger, i change my body skin colour same to environment to protect myself
this will never happened the feel of helpless again
this will never be afraid of the injuries attacked by others again