Wondering

my heart still wondering what i m decided is the correct?
wondering what i hear is just a sweet dream?
when the sunrise i coming everything is come back to normal
that was just a dream for me....
is really unrealistic for me and hard for me to accept so
may be is not because others not confidence to me
but is myself not confidence to myself so
even now already promise to receive the task and responsibility
but i m still wondering my decision is that right?
can you help me to gain my confidential on myself to trust that my decision was right

Voice of a Bird

in front of me are fog,i stop at the branches waiting because i can't see though the distinguish
my head keep turning left and right, i don't know the right direction of it to me
trying to away from the insecure feel but doesn't success
thinking to fly free in the sky, but I'm hesitant
open up my wings, but i' m looking back to the past of myself
how naive and happiness i can just bounce on the branches without any worry
but want me back to past of myself, i really not willing so
don't want to fear of loneliness by forever not leaving my home
don't want because of anyone and let go the chance to learn flying myself
don't want to fear of falling and let myself to avoid from facing
don't want because of any concerns that influence me for missed any rainbow at every corner of the life

may i give myself three wish for this year??

few days more will be rabbit year so, we are sending away tiger year and welcome to rabbit year
unconsciously I m going to experience the second rabbit year in my life so
may i asked the wish for who born in rabbit year will come true this year?
if really so, i won't greedy, i only want to give myself three wish for this year
.......recited silently my wish in my heart......
if there is a god, i hope that you can hear my desire
help me to identify the best direction for me, so that i won't lost and hovering in the crossroad
help me protect all my most treasured, so that i won't feel insecure and anxious
give me the strength and give me the courage to face whatever happened, so that i won't regret to make the decison

m i CHanged to another of me??

people telling me that i m changing
think think think.....erm...erm...erm
m i changed so from the previous of myself???
i don't think so...
may be yes for some small change due to environment
i admit that there is a small changing in myself
like in term of living style, such as
i change to schedule on time sleep and wake up
i change from need people wake up and now no so
i change from listening mandarin song but now less (signal receive radio mandarin no good here)
i change from join plan and now plan myself
even there is a small change due to environment but i m still myself
i m having fun for my new life at penang here and quite enjoy with it even sometimes will miss my home and my dog....
now i can make decision due to myself and thank to them for trust me so much in my decision.....

14/1/2011, friday

a lot happened on this date. firstly, early in the morning found that the house is being throw so act and modernist like a painting drawing on the wall.....














followed by the lunch should be take 90 minutes but we take 150 minute to finish because we go buy iphone 4 and this become a secret me and those guy with me go out eat. we told others that car cannot start after we ate....kekeke....














end of the days of friday is the annual dinner of my company internship.

entertainment myself in intern Boring Life

stay alone....
feel like the life is boring and meaningless
don't ever know how the day had pass
two weeks almost pass without realize
slowly getting used to live alone
now is really the life of living independent
not to rely of anyone on trivial thing like wake up me from sleep
and now i learn to solve problem my own-self, eat alone, cinema alone, shopping alone
but occasionally will feel bored and lonely
so will quietly reading, listen to music or cleaning up the room
or else will hang on call with family and friend to spend time on chatting
now i can live happiness and enjoy my life my own
later on i will start swing my wings and carry my bad to start my daily of travel alone soon