Birthday~

24 years ago today, parent was give me the chance to come this world. Every year for today is the date that should be remember is the happiness to thanks them.

thanks for take good care of me, let me grow up healthy
thanks for give me unlimited strength and support, let me choose the way i wish to go
thanks for give me join in a happy family and sweet home, let me know and understand what is love
thanks for silently keep giving to me..........

when I'm in helplessness, give me feel a warm home
when I'm in afraid, give me a place to escape and protect me from outside attack
when I'm loss, give me a light sport behind me and let me to find my direction

thanks very much that brought me to this world, let me feel what is love, give me chance learn how the life go on.

i was a BIrd in the past life

i might be a bird in my pass life, a wounded bird. So, i was awareness, i were flying, non stop flying.....but when i had a tired, i take a rest on the branches. Then continue to fly, never stop to fly......to see every rainbow in the world, to advance every corner in the world. After take a big round around the world and then back to the origin, there is a place forever waiting for me....


been patient waiting, give me the chance to fly over the world
been quietly observing, give me the time to willful and indulging
been silently listening, give me the strength and encourage to walk over what i willing for

Recall back my memory

Today my aim was finish early and the time for my sleepy worm attack is not reachable yet. Suddenly found that recently my lifestyle is returning back to time that i was study in campus. Feel miss the time that together work overnight with room mate. Even everyone is just busying with own stuff but at least we were together. Even we non any communicated while we were doing our things but that the best feel that for me because they were surrounding of me. That is the time that i miss very much until now.

Yet,now i only can refreshment back to the time i was there and trying to imagine and get back the feel they were with me even just do nothing, just in sleeping, just facing in front of own laptop, just busying doing own homework or drama....eventually i still will feel better because they were just next to me....

Now the time can't be returning, we are stepping our step go forward our own road. I only can refresh back the time we had together for the pass in my memory....wishing everyone of them have a good life and healthy always..forever i will pray for them....

Even for the long time i was alone to living and i totally agree and admit that time to alone still the best choice for me, but living together in harmony with others weren't bad so. Even organism such as plant, animal, microorganism even spirit and soul also can't be separate from the living....everyone of it is playing and important characteristic......that is how the world for now, that is that nature.....

Live in the moment, enjoy and appreciate in the moment and never wait for tomorrow

suddenly found the life is too short for us
even we work effort and plan good for future
but often a lot unexpected might breakout our plan so
today don't know what is the tomorrow happened even next second
the power of living is insignificant
may be in a second time unpredictable happened
we might disappear in the universe become a bubble, become air, become the past, become a memory
suddenly i see clear and even understand well a lot
we should live in the moment, enjoy and appreciate in the moment and never wait for tomorrow
shout out your love to the person that you love, let them know that you love them and don't let it become a sorry
use fully your strength to help more people that need our help
use the unknown time left that to walk and view the world change
to complete the commitment to my own-self, to the one i love, the world

*silently pray for the countless victims in Japan that you all can continue the journey of your life with happy and healthy. Please be glad that you all are alive to have the ability to make all impossible and time to change the world so

Mirror in the heart

how important your position in my heart that can make me to share you every secret in my heart? i don't want you to disappeared from my world at all. the love from you make me feel helpless and confuse. at last, i found that my heart is always rely on you so much. even though can said you just like a mirror to myself, but when face you i know what i really want so clearly. somehow will scare that you are understand myself well better than i understand myself so. You just like the mirror in my heart make me a bit surprise , a bit scare, a bit happy. thump thump....my heart is beating more powerful and make i feel doubt that i m still alive?? wondering why this world have a person understand better than the person herself? is that my soul already out half from myself or i only half of myself since beginning??

Wondering

my heart still wondering what i m decided is the correct?
wondering what i hear is just a sweet dream?
when the sunrise i coming everything is come back to normal
that was just a dream for me....
is really unrealistic for me and hard for me to accept so
may be is not because others not confidence to me
but is myself not confidence to myself so
even now already promise to receive the task and responsibility
but i m still wondering my decision is that right?
can you help me to gain my confidential on myself to trust that my decision was right