Wind

How free is the wind
it can come quite and go quite without inform anyone
a bit jealous to it cool personality
how free of it to be wind
in this world who can be like it so love itself
sometime it like to go near the sea
when it like,
it can go anywhere that having journey without ask anyone
when it dislike and angry,
it will destroy others happiness house and the nature of ecological

it still happy and enjoy to live in itself world without any bound

Leave

Leave~~

in the room leave me alone
even i m usual to be alone
but the feel for the one who leave the last really not good
see them leaving one by one and return to their hometown
heart was in pain and asking myself when is my turn?

Leave~~
the feeling for the one who are left is really not good
see the one shadow the you care leaving in front of
let the one who left feel very in sadness
look at their leaving shadow feel know they suppose to be happy
but for the one who left just can alone face the stress that situation given
just can live painful in the memory that had been together with
sometime across the places that had been with together and fresh back the things that had been did with
uncontrolable the brain will fresh back every memory that have been with in the past
heart will return to the realistic face the painful that the lost of her/him

for the one who are leaving is happy
for the one who left just can continue the life with the memory had been with him/her
may be this is the only way to keep a different position in the one who are left
may be the GOD don't want let the left to face the cruel so it bring him/her belong with it
left all the best and beautiful face of him/ her as a memory to the one who left to encourage....let him/her leave

Confused

Actually how many me that having inside myself, i don't know
Actually how much i understand myself, i also don't know
I don't know what i need now
I don't know where suppose that i go and what suppose i need
Heart was so confused and lost, there is no direction
Scare to move forward and scare to move back
there is not the actual scare feel inside, but is confused and lost

Still finding the direction of my heart.......

Mirror

something is happened surrounding
at first don't know anything
but now everything like so clear as a mirror reflexed to
is just like the rain wash after the world everything was so fresh and clean
fresh back the memory before and now using the brain to analysis and join everything
as an observe is like a mirror everything was so clear look from outside.....

MIRROR, MIRROR, MIRROR

is no longer like the snow white story use to reflex who is the most beautiful heart in the world
but now is reflex who is the most beautiful in the look and the one who are controlling the world
the world is changed and at the same time the mirror changed also
the human are still don't know that what is going on to the world
all are still attracked under the beautiful outlook of the snow white
no one is get know the dangerous and the track going to destroy the protection wall of a country
everyone was so obsession in the beauty outlook snow white
the dangerous is coming against they are no prepare, there is no sign to avoid
wish that everyone will be save and no war again because of the snow white because it was not merit to.....

Alone

this feeling is no longer unfamiliar already
don't know since when usual to live in alone
there is no lonely and sad like first time had it
but now is already know to enjoy time that is alone
spend the time alone with no sharing with others
there is more time to use and spend on a lot things
now more of the time is spend on the play games, study, on call, even typing blog
talking is seldom and this change the character from last time talk active to an observer

when is here already use to be an observer
use the eye to observe and use the ear to listen use the brain to analysis
from here see though can get know what is going to be happened in the future and sociaty
be an observer quitely and never close to anyone be a neutral person among all
don't ever involve in the dispute and middlemen in case
at last the solution will come without your help and that time you might be look at the devil for others
there are a lot case happened is just like 3 years old child fighting
they are blame and angry with each others because of the small case happened
at last within 1 or 2 days they are friend again and you are going back to origin useless for them again....

usual to live in alone do everything independent and don't ever depend on others already
that is a kind of proud and prove that you are a strong person to overcome the problem
mature thinking and no longer a kid or teeneger always play and unserious in doing things
determinate to face everything alone
even is alone there is no lose as long as give up~~
fight for the future,fight for ourself, fight independently with proud~~
alone is no longer a pity for someone who are mature but is a challenge for us to face it.....

like and dislike

like is like,
dislike is dislike,
there is just a personal feeling on a thing, person......
there might be the reason to support why you like or dislike,
but there might be no reason also cause from the first time you saw or meet is already get know the feel from your heart, there is the answer from your heart that you like or dislike....
from the first time meet a person,heart will automatic work and analysis and tell the answer
since the first time saw a person there is an answer send the mind to tell....
normally if dislike someone there is no reason for the first time meet them
but time will prove that why the heart give the reason at first meet of them
everyone that meet before even is the stranger that heart is automatic will analysis and send the data to mind....let know the answer like or dislike~~
dislike is dislike,
no matter how others people think and look at them good,
in the heart there is no change since the first time meet....
there is fix and no one can change anymore....

Free

everything is over
time to release and put down
put down all the burden and stress

relax~~
let free from the books
free from the formula
free from the assignment
free from go class
free from the project
free from exam.....coming soon
free from here.....
free from all the disputes
free from live under pressure
free from live by wearing a mask

FREE!FREE!FREE!
everything going to be free soon and later....

Hide

Don't know since when start have the changed
like to hide.....

everything is definitely different
time to wake time to sleep
time to sleep time to awake
time to eat time to supper
time to talk time to quite
time to work time to lazy
a lot of change is happened on and on......

hiding a lot of things behind
hiding at the cornerbe the observe
hiding from the place that a lot of people
hiding the characteristic and the real personality
hiding from the a lot of problem happened surround
hiding the voice of heart to tell the real
hiding under a mask and always protected from hurt
hiding heart behind a wall

since when the games hiding is so familiar to play?
the only places that is no hiding is in the place that under protection of them
no need to hide and no need to scare on telling even is wrong
no need to scare others angry and no need to scare will offend others
no need scare that others telling the bad and do the bad behind
unsafe feel is strongly get felt if didn't make the hiding from others

Raining

Whole night was raining and the weather are so nice to sleep, but i m still awake. There is a final tomorrow. The rain is so heavy, it cool down the temperature of surrounding. I m bored to continue to it and i go out of the window to relax a bit. Suddenly, i found that there is surrounding is no one except my room are still on the light. There was so quite and cool. This rain clean up the world. At the same time, my heart and mind was so clear also. I fresh back many thing....there is the past, future and now....

The rain is cool down my unsatisfied with the lifestyle and even the people surrounding me......
I clear my mission and even look clear the situation and the character of some people.......
This rain give me the chance to stop for a short rest to analysis what is happened around to me....
Even give me the chance to think the solution to solve the problem....

The night was so long.....same to the rain.....
I can get see sunlight is coming out to bring me to to bright way to solve what is happened to me in the future...

USE

Know to use your brains is a clever sign,
but if you use it to get some return that is consider crafty,
in another way to say that is a bad attitude.
But many of them are using their face to get the advantage from others.
Some are use their beauty face and even the homesome to ask others do thing for them
Some are use to show their weak and soft in front of others to get the pity from others and help
Some even worst treat others like stupid always be the one who give the order to others only to achieved their mission or target

GOD given them everything the good but they use it all in the wrong way.
They use their beauty and their clever and even the people that care and treat them sincere to achieved their target ....

The one who are use by them is not stupid just they are quitely to give a chance to them to return to the right. But this day will not come, until they are use by others then only will get know the feeling and get understand why others are hate them use by others.

GOD is fair to everyone, there will be the repay and punish to the one who suppose to get.

The Feeling Of Safe

There is not everyone can give that feeling
It was very imagination thing, it was a feel
there is not one can really tell that how it come
is just depend on the personal's feeling, suppose to say like this........
when something that important going to be loss,
there are a sense of security alarm is turn on......
You are strongly get feel yours personal things is not belong to your then you will get what means it....
OR
when you are in dangerous, the first person that you thinking is who?
this person is the person that you always believe in and even depend on...
because you know that they are going to help you no matter what you are facing...
even they might no strong enough but you are choose to believe their ability......

Sometime is not the strongest person can give the feel of safe to others, there is not such of theory there....may be is the feel of unsafe or dangerous who bring by this type of people....

The most important things is the confidence.....
confidence can let others get the feel of safe and get a feel that can be depended on to others.... they are choose to believe them because they can solve better than themselve....
For a person that always depend on others to protect themself, their confidence is very less and they are represented of spineless....
Too depend on others to get this feeling is a burnen for others.......there is no one that can let you depend forever. No matter is your family, parent, children, husband, wife, friend, or others. Fate is impossible to let you die at the same time same date same year with the one you depended on. Learn to give the feel of safe for yourself is a type of definitely and don't make yourself so loss direction, learn to be independent, don't let yourself be the burnen for the others is a type of proud also. Live in PROUD!

A smell from a person

some of them like to put the aromatherapy, but i cannot accept it.
I remember that i go visited one friend home her room forever will be having the smell of lavender. Her room is 24 hours full of this smell because she like it, but me everytime i get smell it i m headache and even my nose also will be feel not well and comfortable..may be my nose is sensitive to it.....

Actually aromatherapy one of the way for people to relax when get smell it. May be that smell for me is too strong and make me in tension at all. Smell the perfume or aromatherapy may let a person in addicted. They are depend on the smell,for the one who always put perfume if they didn't put one day or they change to use another perfume.
I didn't like to put perfume. I still remember lastime many of my friend send me perfume. They smell don't like that i put and until there are condense because i put for too long time. But i got one that i like still the same fate to it, everytime that i go out i try to remember myself to put some. But at the end, too rushing that forget always and lastly put when sleep only then only way so that won't be wasted like others. The smell is like nothing and won't be too strong and too fresh. For me it just like the water and my bodyshampoo smell is like i put nothing.
Actually if you really put more concentration on smell, you will get found that the smell of everyone is different. Different person got different smell, no need perfume no need aromatherapy. Everyone will have a special smell on our own.It just like the baby will have the smell of milk on their body.the indian will have the smell of curry even they might not eating or cooking that time. The smell of our body is come from the smell of the bodyshampoo that we use they are mix with us and slow and later it become our smell.
When get smell it, then you can get know is him/her. When he/she is not around, you still can fresh back the smell and even because of the smell make you miss him/her. When he/she go nearer you, you are get the smell of him/ her that can make you feel that you are safe with him/her.When you long time didn't meet a person, you might forget him/her. But i m sure that when you get sense the smell of her/him, you will seacrh around to find the person.

Give The Life A Bit More Sincere

This morning i saw two ants outside of the room.
I observed them and saw they use their beard on the head to touch a bit then both of the ants are go in different direction.
They walked for far....suddenly felt that was regret. At the extremely large sky, they are still can meet but they didn't hug each others at that moment.
( SAID INSIDE HEART OF THE ANT)
" their size of body is so micro, don't know at what time that it can meet again who are similar to it. So that , it can use the beard to touch them and even to say a hello"
It walk back to find it and finally they hug each others tiedly. Both of them thinking....
Is that easy to have this fate?
Is that easy to have a meet?
Is that easy to call as friend?
still the same want to tell.....learn to cherish with carefully

TAKE OUT THE REAL OF YOUR HEART TO TREAT THEM

A type of friend, the time that i with them, i know inside my heart the is not burnen at all, no need to make up myself. No matter what i did also very freedom, i no need scare that they will angry to me because they know that is me and the only face that i will show inside of them. Others won't have this chance at all. We no need everyday, anytime together, but i know that they are not forget me and they never stop to take care of me. We no need to meet everyday, no need to on call everyday..... but i know our friendship is will never change. How i know that? EASY! When i facing the problem, they are forever there and at the position that no change for me waiting me to go there find them. Sometime don't ever need me to tell, they already get sense it from my reaction or emotion even how good i make up myself. In front of them, i cannot hide myself at all, they are already helping me to solve it quitely. Don't let me know that i owe to them so much, how come i don't take out my real heart to treat them......thanks you, my friend....

Devil

D-E-V-I-L

most of the people when look at this word or thing or even person who called by others using this word, for sure everyone will be think to the negative way
Why devil cannot be a good person? Curious. Since from the past never be changed until now.
If someone that always scolded you or even punished you, inside your heart may be you already give the person name as DEVIL.
How many people can actually understand the reason a devil character at the behind?
Treat you bad ,scold you, punish you, train you strict play a bad character in front of you, do you ever think that is because they want you in good?
They are always keep quite and sit at the side let others misunderstand them also won't be give any explain to others at all
When they saw you fall down, they never pick you up and they might riducule at you
If you stay there and cry, they will scold you and shout you to stand up yourself because they want you to be independent and don't depend on others. One day later, the one who protect you might not be around and won't be able to forever with you. At least that time you can live with determinated and independent without ask help from others or bully by others.
If a person really care to others and really want a person to be good, they won't ask any return or repay from others. May be they not usual to be a good person in front of others.....
How many people can do the same thing like them? Without telling their identity, without asking the return from others.......without any reason to give help to others? Can you do it sincere like that?
Some of them using the name of "ANGLE" identity to give help to others, they are kind and friendly to help others but do you think that might be a technic to promote themselve for win the heart of others?
They are friendly in front of others, they are getting back the return is hundred times that he give to others. They are using others to get their destination and target, do you think that before? Very funny, that is the "ANGLE" that this generation asking for?
Are they really "ANGLE" for our society? Do make the decision and conclusion so early.
ANGLE or DEVIL still cannot differential, time will ket you grow and see clear which is the"REAL ANGLE" is

Trap

Even know there is a trap, are you dare to walk in? May be is too rasional!
In our life there is a lot of challenge, but sometime is because of rasional thinkning there is a lot of missing chance to try that all.
Human are scare to hurt, but without overcome there is not improvement, why scare but still want to try it?

Another ways to explain it is
Because scare to get hurt, so always make the decision that protect ourselve even that is selfish.
Because having the hurt before, so never naive and easy to believe to others again
Sometime saw many of friend surrounding get in, at the end all are getting the hurt and come out with tears.......
May be is scare to get the hurt, who dare to let yourself get hurt? Can the heart accept the double attacked?
Even how stupid or how silliy is the person after get hurt, they are learn to be clever and learn to protect themselve, because this world there is no one more cherish than our own. Even there is a person like this, but how sure are you that the person won't be leave you one day?

Because of that we learn a lot of think to protect ourselve, learn to use different face to face different type of people.
In front of different type of people, having different type of our own, different type of our character, different type of communication skill and techinc, there is many type of different......

For the people who hurt us before there is the same returned to them that using their way, learn their hypocrisy, face them with a cooless face and smile
For the mature friend, face them with a childish face, because they can solve the problem for us
For the family, face them with a mature face, parent at home is getting older, we must be take over to support the family
For the problem, face them with the rasional and yield face, because there is not one can help to solve it when you really face problem
For the different of people surrounding, will be having a lot of face....depend on who is the people is.....
In the end one thing for sure, there is uncounted of ourselve. Because the trap is always surrounding, if reall don't want to get hurt the only way is learn to protect ourselve, that is always to guard against them.

Forget To Bring Key

Today again forget to bring key, i know that there is no one inside the room and i can't even make call to ask the help from others. There are not around today all. What can do? Solve it by it by myself. There is not others way to choose, so use the old technic, climb from the study room to get in the window of my room. For me this is not the first time, i m familiar and usual to it already, that is easy for me. But when get in the room i fresh back the feeling for the first time while i climbed in......
Before i climbed out from study room window. I non-stop to see the the down, observe the height and think the way to reach safety to my room window. I still remembered that everytime i looked down my heart is getting scarer, scare to make mistake, the heart is almost separeted with my body.
After thinking again and again i believe that myself can do that and i started my first step come out from the study room window. I found that my heart at that moment is definitely steady and quite. In my brain there is not scare is appear like before, that time my brain was empty. For me is just like walking normal in a flat floor there and no dangerous at all.
When go nearer the window in my room, my heart is started nervious and feel want to get fast to climb in the window. My eyes was continuous look down when i m standing on the eaves......
I get step up an climbed inside the window, my heart was return to the steady again. Its just like the advanture just now is an illusion, a bit unbelieveable to me because i really did that.....

From the whole process of first time i did that i get know and understand that some theory that we study but never understand......

I found that the one who brave to jump off a building is very brave. because they can understand well what is means by potential energy and the air resistance.
Something that we cannot just stand and observe. Observe it make you scare that you are not brave to try that forever that you won't know about the feeling of that. Once you try that then only you get the secret inside. When you get older, you still got the story to tell your young generation. I m sure that time you will admire your brave that time. When you less of brave to try and just observe at the side, its just like you step on the same place and never improve at all
The one to step out the first step it need a lot of brave. No matter at the end is sucess or not, there is no one can give any option to deny the person efforts. If there is some to give option and opinion on this, they suppose to ask theirselve are they dare to do that? Are they brave to do that? Don't just give the option before they try that.....

Betrayal

give you the time,
give you the trust,
give you the confidence,
even is not my decision at all,
but finally just followed the decision that you make,
what i get from your returned to me is just the betrayal.


this all is my fault cannot blame and complain to others,
our friendships started from that second is not precious to me anymore,
no matter how good your explanation is already useless and no meaning to me,
at that second you are totally delete the name from my dictionary of friend list,
everything is gone after that second,
but i still have to thank to you that let me learn a valuable class in my life.

Get and Loss in Life

Life is impossible to be forever winner
When you are loss something, then you will get something to replace it and balance back
Therefore before you make a decision, you must have the enough bravery to accpet the loss

Life forever won't be prefect
Before you choose a choice, there are the sacrificed
Analysis the what you have sacrificed is that merit to you to do that decision

Life for us is always pass in the make decision
You always have to loss something to get something
There is not perfect and without sacrificed happened in this world

By the time you get money, you may loss your personality
When you get the power, you may loss direction of yourself
You get the position, you loss your family, health, happy.......
There are no one sharing with you when you get all of the thing that you wish..
everyone is far from you even there is many people always surrounding you but there are near to you is not because of caring....

Human always loss what the precious to them then only they realize what is important to them
Why cannot always make the analysis and think rasional before they make decision?
Choose the road you wish to walk and analysis what you wish to get
By the time prepared yourself to face what is going to loss after the decision
Always choose the sacrificed that is merit to yourself
so that in the future you be regret and sad to your sacrificed
continue the journey of your life.....

Cannot Put It Down

Some case is not say ignore or neglected it
you can forget on it had been happened
Some feeling is not say end up
you can just stop and put it down easy
Some things is not means throw it
that thing won't be surrounding again
Some people is leaving us
you cannot just delete them from your memory

Many thing was happened and cannot be returned
History is always be remember by others and forever is stay in our memory....even our heart
Just like some love even it is not the same like the past
but we still let it stay and stop at the time most beautiful continue repeating and fresh back in our memory and heart...
Same to some things that even is old and throw
but time we having it before is still memorable for us because we loss it then only we know to miss and precious to it.....
Same to some people who are leaving from us, they are always happiness because we are the one who always miss them so much.....

Don't even is case, even, things, feeling, love, or a person when it was past
they are the best and the most precious to us....
If there is always be remember and miss no matter is a thing, case, even, feeling, love or a person.....
they are very lucky and happiness because there is someone that always keep them in their heart and....CANNOT PUT IT DOWN

Stupid?

why in this world got this type of people appear?
they always think that others is stupid ?
must under their control ask follow their order?
think they are very knowledgeable?
no actually is not.....
what they know just to order others only~

always keep on saying that "i m stupid"
even sometime they are really clever
but don't go always tell others in opposite way
if they keep no one will say anything
but they keep on telling that they are stupid like show off themselves
the most angry is they always say that "you are more clever and i m stupid"

may be you will say that is because they are modesty and they have good attitude
sometime really very hate this type of people, it this because of bias to the person?
that why what is doing by the person also dislike....
this one not so sure....but for sure what inside say that...
since first time we meet is the feeling of dislike is never far and always surrounding

the feel for each person is different and hard to tell others
but if you dislike a thing then you won't be go nearer to it
same to human
if you dislike no matter how hard another person working also useless

there are billion of people in the world ,when you get meet this type a person
you are lucky because.......
that is a challenge for you to face
learn way to communicate with different type of people........

Hope

got a hope?
for sure you wish it will come true in one day later
in our heart got some hope or wish that may be very far and hard to realize
even the hope sometime is really impossible to realize
but in deep of our heart still hoping that one day later a miracle will happen


time for waiting a hope to come real is very long
it might needs hald of our life to wait for it to come real
may be a returning of a person's heart........

hope usually is perfect
it can be a cinderella waiting for the prince to come
it can be also a poverty student waiting for a sucess day

everyday having the same hope
even sometime it won't come real
but this will give a spirit to them to continue their life
let them believe that tomorrow will be better and hope will realize

how perfect is the hope
even the realistic our life is still continue with the hard and painful
we are still wish to wait the hope come true even it might be late
Do you wish to wait it?Do your heart going to believe in it?
a person who change the his/her heart.........
hope that one day he/she will returning.......hope........hope.......

Realize and accept

some case when you know the real of everything, you feel that were cruel
even from the beginning, you get sense that and try to tell yourself that was the real
life is like that even we know that is a trap in front, but we still jump inside it
and try to get the look deeper so that can make the change
finally, what was get from jumping into the trap is just the hurt to yourself
when get hurt then only realize the real sometime is very cruel
after had tears and hurt only, we know and learn to face the cruel and accept the realistic
many of them after get hurt then only will grow, after fall then only realize and wake up from the dream
because our tears were dry and the hurt deep to our heart then only we can always remind ourselves never do the same wrong again and learn to live independent and brave to face everything in our future
sometime we did hurt others then only we know that how important that person inside our heart
when everything is over, the end we just can determination to face the day that without he/she and that time only we know to treasure what we having now
even at this time myself still at the cross road of the sadness facing that the cruel realistic i don't want to face
no scare, no afraid, no hiding, brave to face and accept it
let it always remind me
because want to grow, i learn to accept, learn to facing, learn to treasure, learn from the wrong and change.....
don't let myself so easy fall down and when fall down i find the way to get up then only can be the real winner forever