Insomnia

recently my physical and mentality keep complaining to me
they are showing emotion to me that they were unsatisfied
i know they are tiring work with those endless work
feel sorry to them, but i force to do so to them

















yesterday again they are work for whole day never switch off
by the time i want to off the power, they are emotion again
light is off, lying on the bed, preparing to rest....but fail
may be they work over limit and uncontrollable already
lastly just trance on the bed without the light
the mind is first time empty in recently
i was over a sleepless night with stare blankly

a Lot....

my lifestyle is totally inverse compare to others
i m tired to do all the assignment and project
somehow the test is around the corner
the stress never be decrease but keep increasing
is same case as my homework and studies at all

suddenly think back happened in this semester
actually is not bad, at least i learned something
a lot of things happened that let me grow a lot
by the same time i m growing i wish i can be back to child again
now i understand well the stress to be adult even i m student now

a lot to cover, a lot to think, a lot to complete, there is a lot....a lot....and a lot.....

a BOat in ocean

recently my life is just like a boat in the ocean

floating here and there at the endless of the ocean

cannot get see the island and even others boat

don't know where is the direction, cannot distinguish where is the north or south

seemed to calm but there is the crisis that unknown hidden in front waiting to me

will is be the agitated endless waves waiting to me in front?

or the unpredictable storm waiting for me in front?

i don't know....

since is be so for now, just let it be and i'm sure the god will arrange it to me

for this moment, the only that i can do is to enjoy the calm ocean have now

Fishing

fishing is a good outdoor activities to train our patient
but another type of fishing which is not good is because place wrong
fishing in the class, fishing in the working place is all wrong
but we cannot away from this most of the time
a lot of experiment was did and prove to us
the main fact of the fishing reason is a lot of theory in class
the class was so bored until everyone was empty their mind go fishing
yesterday was my first time have the mind to catch big fish.....
it was very tired to hold the fishing rod, waiting and waiting the fish get in my bait
~~~ohaaa~~~













suddenly i hear the word "QUIZ", my big fish was run away from me again!!!haiz....

heavy rain in the heart

Today's mood seem to evening heavy rain, out of control
no one can about my feeling, about my decision, about my direction
even i were busy, but i know if i follow my heart go at least i will happy for now
i rather than rushing go and back than become now, at least i know that is the happiness that i want
really been defeated, why don't let me follow my heart this time? why don't let me wayward for the only once?
at least i will happier than now, at least let me know that i m not alone
at least let me know i m needed, at least let me know..........
for the first time hope that you all be my side, for the first time that hope that someone can listen to me
for the first time i don't want to be alone to face, but happen~~~disappointing

FORMAT

again the night that only me awake
suddenly all the thing like so clear in front
may be the environment so quite and peaceful
i won't get any stress and tension to be alone
the time is like just stay for me the only person
mind set~~~FORMAT....like computer start over again
a lot of things understand suddenly
a lot of confuses get become clear
a lot of experiences become knowledge
a lot of problem stuck in heart solve
now~~new window~~everything start from zero to develop
heart is so lighter, shoulder is no burden, mind is free~~

Invisible

life is non stop busy continuous for few days already
now some of the things is complete and send up
even still got a lot of things that not yet complete
but my feel for now is like standing in the middle of the busy city
but i m the only that nothing to do and observing others
looking at everyone is busy with their own job without realizing me
i feel like i m the only extra in the busy city
i feel like i m in the others spacing of the same city
this allow me to just as the invisible to others and observing others
i m invisible~~~

What happened to me N0w!!!

rushing on time again~~
this is not the first time...
a lot of thing need to complete
yet some is not even start at all
one sentence to conclude is "Oh My God!!! GG lo!!!"

ready myself to be drive overnight car everyday to complete all
hopefully now all the sick and problem Creator can far from me
no laptop problem, no unsolvable problem, no continue adding homework~~~
hehehe~~cause now already a mountain collection.....
wish everything will be ok soon as soon as possible

suddenly feel miss home....
for the first time everyone is home gather.....only me is not around
feel sorry to them because i cannot get adjust the time together with them
i can't remember since when i never have together with all member in family together
1 year, 2 years, 3 years, 4 years.....nop....nop...nop...is 5 years....5 years....
i cannot get meet everyone of them even is Chinese new year......Miss you all~~~

last week i was attend my brother convoy in melaka. i felt want to convoy also as soon as possible. That time only i realize that during the study life is how nice, want go trip just go, want sleep just sleep, no need to worry about others things. When we go out for working soon, there was no time for us together to trip again. I want go trip around before i graduate from here....so that one day later i wont regret because no time trip with friend. Now i still got 2 semester break before end my studies life. I want go trip around....yahooooooo........