Short hair

around 9 years it stay with me
suddenly got the feel bored to see it
lazy to maintain and annoying to see the same style
today i make a decision to make the change on it
i cut my long hair which keep for 9 years
2010 is coming soon, it should be the right time to change
welcome the new year to come and even myself
first look at the hair feel cannot accept it and hate to the change
but at last i did it, actually is the same like life
we must have motive and action only can make the change
sometimes we cannot just look the problem in one way
long hair might be more style to change and look attractive
but short hair might give a clean and smart image to public
no matter how change doesn't means is not a good start~~

vacation alone

life is at the right time only can understand some of the reasons
before the vacation, i was always on busy mode until cannot breath
but suddenly give me a long period of time rest, i felt bored that everyday is counting on time to pass
at last take the decision to realize my promise to myself, i go for vacation alone~~~

my ten days trips is started
i use one day to sit bus and reach my cousin's house
three days got friend with me walk around
one day for visit relative and one day for ais skating
the others time is really the vacation on my own~~~~

everyday wake up from the morning, only the empty house is with me
i' m carrying a bag and holding the camera just want to leave this house quickly
without destination, i called my friend time to time to get the direction to my destination (the tourist attraction here)
in my alone vacation, i had the experience that waiting a person for an hour
the experience of walk around the center busy road, but i only felt myself
take photo alone; eat alone; looking at the sea quietly and blowing by the sea wind while i sitting at the beach for few hours

suddenly i understand a lot of things and that is the life
i can understand how helpless human to the life
when we busy we wish to rest, when we far from home we miss home
i can understand how an old man feel lonely always
they always forgotten by the younger and they are helpless to do the things they wish
suddenly i felt tired and miss home, at home at least my mum and my dog is waiting for me
like that i end my ten days vacation alone~~

Speechless

Myself is on my vacation now,but my mood wasn't
Some people that long time didn't meet,i was very miss them
Once the person in front of me,the feel tell me that i wasn't that much miss them so
I always on call with them,there was unlimited title and topic to talk
But once meet and sit down in front,both of us were silent
I don't know why and what is happened so...
May be we are familiar with those feel that far away miss and those feel that hang on call
Suddenly change was only bring the silent situation that to hard for ours to accepted...

where you go, my heart?

everything is over now

but where are you, my heart?
why i still can't get you?
where did you go round and round?
are you lost the direction to go home?
or still stay at the place we busy war for last?
do you forget the war is already over?
please come back to the owner now....
there is empty inside her....

a CaLL

out of the study mood and spirit
still in the sadness of yesterday
totally give up to touch any book
the mood continue for whole day
things that to do all not relate to study
even there is another paper on coming Monday
the feel is like keep falling and falling to unknown deeper
the bright is getting further and further from me
need some energy to pull me up to the correct way
RING...RING....RING...
a call is saving me from keep falling
actually they did nothing to me at all beside listen to me
thanks for the understanding of you all
thanks that pull me up to the correct way again
thanks that call me release from keep falling~~

Ultimate Life

exhaust in the study schedule
now awake but still sleepy and blur
want to study actually but the spirit down
tasks is getting heavier and harder day by day
the brain is non stop thinking and absorbing
the eye keep reading note row by row
the hand is non stop pressing on the calculator
the coffee cup one is no more enough for me
keep fulfill it with green tea and coffee to refresh me from sleepy
my laptop is keep scare me with those window error and auto restart
my mouse also play emotion to me because non stop running
all this happened in a row to make going to be ultimate

HELP!!!!HELP!!!HELP!!!
i m going to be killed~~~

DRive Overnight

again a drive overnight case is started
the one who with me always the "old friend"
books and draft papers are surrounding
a cup of green tea that cooled
there is a white colour laptop on the small table
next to it always a bottle of "Hero" - eye mo & Yoko-Yoko
in the room 3 people are at their own corner with me
we all doing our own stuff, one sleep, one study, one watching movie
how about me?
I'm at a corner, relying on my bedstead, facing the wall
left hand is hugging a mashimaro that roommate throw to me just now
right hand is non stop playing with my mouse (hamster)
pressing on the calculator, keep drawing on the draft paper
my eyes was flying thought the note in front of laptop
haiz...today don't know need to stay until what time!!!
lucky still got the music that with me stay and strunggle to the unknown tomorrow~~~

JUmp out from Aquarium

finally, success jump out from the aquarium
that was fresh air breathing incoming to the lung
the tension on the shoulder was gone
mood from begin cloudy to storm then turn back to sunny
it was exactly on the time before try to start again the engine

quite a long time survive at the big aquarium
a lot that observed from this society since first come
don't know is hiding at the begin or changing at the end
totally two different faces for before and after
only time can prove how a person is that....

jump out from the aquarium, the only sentence want to say is
"recognize face not means that the heart so"

uNder recovery

already is the begin of November, this semester pass so fast
today i let myself to indulge, do whatever first come in my mind
1st of November is just passed, recall back what i had done
sleep should be the most of time in 24 hours
long time didn't sleep until naturally wake up
today the total time that i sleep is 15 hours
hehehe...totally under recovery of sleepping time.....
besides sleepping, i was under the heart recovery process
i was hang on call with the person i miss very much for time that i awake
willing to see them soon~~thanks for understanding of you all....
please wait me for another 3 weeks.....i will come to meet u...
wait me~~~wait me~~~wait for me~~~
don't go away so fast....if not i will sad because have to wait for 3 years later to see u

Insomnia

recently my physical and mentality keep complaining to me
they are showing emotion to me that they were unsatisfied
i know they are tiring work with those endless work
feel sorry to them, but i force to do so to them

















yesterday again they are work for whole day never switch off
by the time i want to off the power, they are emotion again
light is off, lying on the bed, preparing to rest....but fail
may be they work over limit and uncontrollable already
lastly just trance on the bed without the light
the mind is first time empty in recently
i was over a sleepless night with stare blankly

a Lot....

my lifestyle is totally inverse compare to others
i m tired to do all the assignment and project
somehow the test is around the corner
the stress never be decrease but keep increasing
is same case as my homework and studies at all

suddenly think back happened in this semester
actually is not bad, at least i learned something
a lot of things happened that let me grow a lot
by the same time i m growing i wish i can be back to child again
now i understand well the stress to be adult even i m student now

a lot to cover, a lot to think, a lot to complete, there is a lot....a lot....and a lot.....

a BOat in ocean

recently my life is just like a boat in the ocean

floating here and there at the endless of the ocean

cannot get see the island and even others boat

don't know where is the direction, cannot distinguish where is the north or south

seemed to calm but there is the crisis that unknown hidden in front waiting to me

will is be the agitated endless waves waiting to me in front?

or the unpredictable storm waiting for me in front?

i don't know....

since is be so for now, just let it be and i'm sure the god will arrange it to me

for this moment, the only that i can do is to enjoy the calm ocean have now

Fishing

fishing is a good outdoor activities to train our patient
but another type of fishing which is not good is because place wrong
fishing in the class, fishing in the working place is all wrong
but we cannot away from this most of the time
a lot of experiment was did and prove to us
the main fact of the fishing reason is a lot of theory in class
the class was so bored until everyone was empty their mind go fishing
yesterday was my first time have the mind to catch big fish.....
it was very tired to hold the fishing rod, waiting and waiting the fish get in my bait
~~~ohaaa~~~













suddenly i hear the word "QUIZ", my big fish was run away from me again!!!haiz....

heavy rain in the heart

Today's mood seem to evening heavy rain, out of control
no one can about my feeling, about my decision, about my direction
even i were busy, but i know if i follow my heart go at least i will happy for now
i rather than rushing go and back than become now, at least i know that is the happiness that i want
really been defeated, why don't let me follow my heart this time? why don't let me wayward for the only once?
at least i will happier than now, at least let me know that i m not alone
at least let me know i m needed, at least let me know..........
for the first time hope that you all be my side, for the first time that hope that someone can listen to me
for the first time i don't want to be alone to face, but happen~~~disappointing

FORMAT

again the night that only me awake
suddenly all the thing like so clear in front
may be the environment so quite and peaceful
i won't get any stress and tension to be alone
the time is like just stay for me the only person
mind set~~~FORMAT....like computer start over again
a lot of things understand suddenly
a lot of confuses get become clear
a lot of experiences become knowledge
a lot of problem stuck in heart solve
now~~new window~~everything start from zero to develop
heart is so lighter, shoulder is no burden, mind is free~~

Invisible

life is non stop busy continuous for few days already
now some of the things is complete and send up
even still got a lot of things that not yet complete
but my feel for now is like standing in the middle of the busy city
but i m the only that nothing to do and observing others
looking at everyone is busy with their own job without realizing me
i feel like i m the only extra in the busy city
i feel like i m in the others spacing of the same city
this allow me to just as the invisible to others and observing others
i m invisible~~~

What happened to me N0w!!!

rushing on time again~~
this is not the first time...
a lot of thing need to complete
yet some is not even start at all
one sentence to conclude is "Oh My God!!! GG lo!!!"

ready myself to be drive overnight car everyday to complete all
hopefully now all the sick and problem Creator can far from me
no laptop problem, no unsolvable problem, no continue adding homework~~~
hehehe~~cause now already a mountain collection.....
wish everything will be ok soon as soon as possible

suddenly feel miss home....
for the first time everyone is home gather.....only me is not around
feel sorry to them because i cannot get adjust the time together with them
i can't remember since when i never have together with all member in family together
1 year, 2 years, 3 years, 4 years.....nop....nop...nop...is 5 years....5 years....
i cannot get meet everyone of them even is Chinese new year......Miss you all~~~

last week i was attend my brother convoy in melaka. i felt want to convoy also as soon as possible. That time only i realize that during the study life is how nice, want go trip just go, want sleep just sleep, no need to worry about others things. When we go out for working soon, there was no time for us together to trip again. I want go trip around before i graduate from here....so that one day later i wont regret because no time trip with friend. Now i still got 2 semester break before end my studies life. I want go trip around....yahooooooo........

Wind is me, I AM wind

i come like a wind
you cannot stop me
you cannot get tied me
you cannot get catch me
you cannot even follow up my step

i go like the wind
don't know where i will go next
don't know when i will go away
don't know which direction i will go
don't know what is the next going to do

i am a wind
that no one can guess me
that no one can stop me
that no one can control me
that living free and wild in this world....

Like, Easy; Accustom, N0t EasY

Like a person is easy but not easy for a person accustomed
the feel of like can be temporary or long-term is depend
accustom is a long-term and without time limited
usually like is because of good of the person so we like
but for accustom is we usual to and accept the weakness of the person
different type of people chasing different feel in their life
some is chasing the feel of heart shock for a short period by like or love
some is chasing the feel of safe that bring by accustomed
is same like some is willing to have a vigorous and advance relation like the XO
some is rather to have a steady and longer relation like the water....

VS

Sp33d

modern life was a race against the time
every second we need to think the future
the brain is non stop thinking and thinking
even watching the drama you might using your brain also
the life was so speeding until we forget everyday its been
why live?strike for the best?strike for the non see future?
suddenly felt want to stop and decadent for a period of time
to be an invisible, don't care about others, don't care about myself
stop everything that happen busy the centre of the city
just for me alone that can move in the time only for me
so i can walk slowly to among the busy
so i can speed away from the busy centre, speeding away from problem....

is air? NONONO, not even anything...

not necessarily people we meet everyday, we are knowing them
is just like people know me, but not means i must know them
some is we knows each others but is cannot consider as friend at all

the situation is very simply, let look at the example below~~~

There must be same people, same time, same bus stop waiting for the bus everyday. They all are passenger of the bus and they are familiar with the face of each others. Yet, they never knows each others and they never have any communication in between at all.

Another case is others knows to us but we don't ever know who are them? In another words of explanation is we know there is a person in surrounding us, but we are the two person that no relation at all.

The last one is the funniest case. We know each others but is not consider and not qualified to call as friend at all. They even worse than the passengers in the first case, even their behavior or what they do in, just like the nothing and don't want to care at all. Felt like if told also waste the saliva, even hate their behavior also felt redundant, if angry also felt dumber and no energy, even look at them also will feel like no difference of looking at the air (see nothing)

D@zed

like the feel of stay alone quietly in the dead of the night
alone leave the dank room and walk around breath the fresh air
blowing by the cold air, looking at the stars and the moon
silently looking to the sky without thinking, without doing anything
just like this sit quietly and dazed for a period of time
only one person to enjoy in the dead night, only dead night for mine

Is yours, its won't away

is yours won't be away from you
things use to throw everywhere
but lucky every time is found
even cannot get find it for the urgent time
or may be quite a long time missing
but at last its come back to you again
if it is yours for sure its won't away
may be just hiding to let you nervous
if not belong to you the things
no matter how tied how careful you want to keep it
it sure got the way to away from you
things lost, things found
is yours won't run, if not your tied it also will lost

no need to count petal
is yours, won't be run away
not yours, you won't get tied

SHIp or MotOrboat

2 type of human can separate to in this case:

first, people who live in group
they are sitting in a big ship that always connected
they are live in the relation and care about each others
they are dependent to each others is just like the plant
it will dry and die if its live without water and sun

second, people who live independent
they are wishing to drive their own motorboat travel around
they are uncontrollable, stubborn and self-willed
they are independent and you cannot catch it all the time
its just like the wind, where it wish it will come and go without informing

not everyone can live in both condition.
which type of person are you? Ship Or Motorboat?

My Bowl

a broken mirror really can restore?
somethings will never return when we lost it
even it can be recover or repair but is no longer appearance like the original face
may be because of cannot have it again or not belong to us anymore
there is dismay and regret in the heart forever
it can only miss it and appear in the memory~~~

"my bowl"

sad....study life without mamee for temporary

Concern in between

to grow we must overcome a lot of things, we must let ourselves hurt and injury. So that, our soul and our heart are getting stronger one day later. We must naive and get in trick before then only we get learn be mature.

time is pass slowly from day to day, the minds is no fly to a distance away from me,. Lying down under the sky blue relaxing, suddenly found that the heart is no longer steady and no longer only myself. Suddenly felt very miss to you all, how ya you guy recently?

the relation with you all is never get decrease even we are far away from each others. We are still the same like the pass, is just like stepping on the origin. Never change to look at each others, miss to each others, care to each others, supporting to each others.....

we are usual with this relation by quietly caring and keep each others inside the heart without controlling freedom, time and even the space for each others. Because we understand well what we needed, we have our own dream, ambition and future to work for.....

thanks, you guys.....

fly to the sky that you wish

now i know for the long time, i m the one who cannot accept the reality
i m the one who dedicated and not willing to face the reality
they all love to me and protect me without reserved
they don't want me in hurt and injury but they are hurting cruel to each others
is me let them live in suffer and painful
i am ashamed, i am guilt, i am self-re-reproach
very hate that myself because consciousness so late
very hate that i m the one become the stumbling block between them
sincerely said "I'm wrong, I'm so sorry"
i really wish you all live in happiness always
go~go~go~~~
spread your wing and fly to the sky that you want

wave moody

moody now is just like the wave coming
keep attacking to the sand on the beach
every comes is bring away some of the sand
it longer a peaceful beach and sea that used to
i can get know the steady is not longer stay with me
how can i have you again?
no idea, no direction, no confidence......
it seems like there is a wall in front blocking me to move forward
i cannot see though, i do not understand, i don't know.......
madness moody~~~really hate to be like this........

Still care about?

has been not care anything for long time
and never request and asking for anything
thought that is the best way to away from getting hurt
but the tears still drop and the heart still painful
thought it have been solve and will never happen again
but it happened again for twice in front of me
thought that the heart has numbness and the tears have dried
but it isn't like what i wish to be
why is already used to be still care about?
why is already know the ending still care about?
why is already give up the tears still drops the heart still painful?

Starry Sky

under the dark black sky, the only that side with is the star which hanging upset on the sky
look upward of the starry sky, the brightest star is never stop attracting me concern on it
look toward along the beach, tonight there is a lot of people compare to normal's day
lying on the beach, feel like the whole beach is just a person is enjoying with it
see though a distance far from front, there is a deep sea that cannot reach the ending
listening and felt the sound of the waves, a lot of memory is recall back suddenly
happy and sad, all is display in the brain sorts by sorts
fall and up, all is collected and growing
now refresh back the pass of mine and look though the me for now
that is totally different and now only realize that i have been so naive and persistent before
thanks to those who had been part of the story and be the guess that bring me grow
is similar like the brightest star in the starry sky, there must be other star to set off the value of it

Meteor Rain

for the long time did not had the feel like this
quietly waiting for something that without knowing the result
by the way of waiting, the heart felt very nerves and excited
even though know will be disappointing but still looking forward
quietly waiting for the arrival from the far to me.....

meteor rain, why are you here?















are you understand the feeling of mine?
are you crying because of my sadness and disappointing in my heart?
can you bring to me a number of meteor stars?
can you fulfill all my wishes and hopes?
i really wish that you can bring away my problems
i really wish that you can accompany me walk along
i really wish that you can in front of me now
so that i no need tired waiting for you anymore
so i can hand up my burden to you and believe to you
believe every drop of your tale can let me make a wish
believe every single meteor star is a hope that you give to me
believe every time you come to me can burn my problem in the sky and bring me the smile

Voice of the patient

no matter how strong how independent how courageous a person
every time when they are sick will wish to have a person concern about
mostly their spirit is low and weak compare to healthy because of sick
and that is the time they need the concern and protection from others
so that they have the time for them to put down all the burden and rest
let themselves enjoy in the time that protected and concerned by others
show the characteristic that they never show in front of public
show their afraid and down face which hide for long time
show that their willing to have the protection from others
show that their dependence on others faces in heart
show that their childish and brutal face in naturally
open up the heart let others to enter by show their own weakness that not usual to show in front of the person who take care of them because just want to get more care for them
and that is the only time that a person can rest in mentality and physically

Distance

when talk about distance everyone is looking to far
is that really the far from us only consider is distance?
actually the furthest distance in the world is not the arctic
but is distance in the heart~~~
is the time I'm in front of you but you cannot see me
is the time I'm standing next to you but you cannot get feel me
is the time I'm talking to you but you cannot hear me
because the distance of the two hearts is getting further and further
even they are hugging but they are still very far away from each others
in the reverse way, if the two hearts is linking together
no matter life or death they are still can get feel each others
the only distance that can further each others is the heart~~~

Impulse

a type of power that keeping inside the heart
its burning slowly until become a raging fire
most of the time we are thinking a lot before action
we are consider a lot of concerns in making decision and do something
because of the action above, we lost the impulse to do so
we might miss something that is important and even change in our life
that is why a lot of people is telling the truth after they drunk
may be they scare to face and scare to tell so they choose to drunk and tell
if there is a urge in your heart and calling you to do
just go ahead and follow what the sound that come from your heart
do not worry and thinking so much on it
sometimes we need to back to the naive child character
do anything that they wish to on the sport
if you are taking the way of an adult to make decision
actually the much you think the harder that you in making decision or choices

Life is short and enjoy it

we live is not for others but for our own
life is short and we must enjoy all the time in our life
there is nothing that we need to care about beside ourselves
there is no one more love to ourselves if we don't do so
there is nothing important from others opinion
the most important is ourselves feeling and our heart
if we against the heart and listen to others
there is no longer the real of ourselves and not the real of us
life is short, live happy and enjoy all the time that we have
ignore and neglect others opinion and even critique to us
learn to love ourselves and protect ourselves more
before we going to love and protect others
life is our own, so live happy and enjoy the time for ourselves not for others

The end

everything must be have the begin and the end
work for so hard from the begin until the end
even is not so prefect as what is thinking in the mind
but the only can do is accept on it
there is nothing can change on it anymore
same like a drama even the ending is not good enough
but we all is going to accept it because that is the fate
the most important is enjoy in the drama
play and act responsible in your character
don't let ourselves regret on the character that we had
try the best and enjoy the time we are in the drama
when drama end even the characteristic is not good enough
but others will still remember on ourselves in their memory
a new drama is going to be start soon in the time coming soon
be ready~~be prepare~~don't again regret during the end.....

"memory of minds 09"

Request

human life is very short in the galaxy
having too much of request is a type of suffer
not even to ourselves but also to others
by having request only can improve
by having the request only get the development to move forward
but how many people who really know about no request is the highest level in the life
just because of no request, they know to let go and appreciate
just because of no asking, they know to face and accept
most of the time in human life is helpless
sometimes learn to let go not because want to get more
but learn to accept the new challenges
everyone have different life philosophy in their mind
if they are forcing themselves toward to get something that is not belong to them is suffer
actually if they can do until no request no asking in their life is a big challenge for them also

Sick

scare to be in sick even is lightly
very miss the time that was healthy
everything is so nice without realize
cannot get the smell of medicine
no need to take the medicine
everything like is available to eat
everywhere that want to go just move toward
how nice if a person have healthy
no need scare will create problem to others
no lack on others because taking care of us
sick~~~so bad~~~smell of medicine and show the weakness

Maintain

most of the time we are expect to change
but is that really possible to do so
because of change then change
we lost ourselves because of change
lost the real personality of ourselves
for sure if can maintain all the good and reduce all the bad is the best
but if really cannot do that
better is keep maintain the same of ourselves
maintain the same by not moving backwards
may be you will say that is no improvement
but if the relationship or love or personality?
is that maintain better than getting worst
just be maintain the same if really cannot change better

Empty

time spend for 2 weeks
but what is learn is empty
what is get just the tired and sick
empty in understand why Malaysia always can
empty in understand the high management
empty in understand about the activities
cannot get any answer from anyone
empty people is answer the useful answer
empty people is stand up to protect the sound
empty people is pointing out the wrong
one word to describe the 2 weeks spend on "EMPTY"

Promise

Promise~~
a nice and beauty word
everyone can give it simply
but how many can realize on it?

Promise~~
a high expectation
everyone is wishing that it will come true
but is that really same like what the promise before?

Promise~~
a fantasy desire
everyone is willing to change
but the only can see is just the illusion

Promise that cannot be realize is no longer the promise anymore
it was just an unrespect lie to run away from responsibility from others....

Drama

many things in our life is just like a drama
the story are all planning in good and systematic without knowing
run smooth without any accident that is "the real of accident"
since is the planning, so there must be an ending
even may be is not a good ending but still have to accept on it
this is the drama

the hero that in the drama can be only live in the drama world
when the hero is step down from the stage
there is another person of the hero that we cannot imagery
so cannot believe at all of the hero in the drama world
because there are acting to others to ask from the rewards?
whose knows? how they did it? when is it?

talk to different people in different vision
be a good person is not really a really good person
if not you are equally to kill yourself
interesting drama not means that must be the happy ending
at here i make a promise to myself and i must realize it
be a hero in the drama is not the real of us
try to ask your heart.....listen to it

Holid@y

holiday~~what a long holiday stay home for nothing
this is the first time to have my longest holiday since primary end
and this should be the first time i really go for so many trip in a holiday
bored to have what a long holiday like this, everyday repeated the same

human are weird
when too much of work to do they complain too tired want holiday
when too free and nothing to do they complain too bored want to find work
may be i m this type of people that cannot have too free and cannot be too busy

few day holiday can relax and cool down the tension and stress
long time of holiday can is too bored because this will lazy ourselves
may be the holiday means for me is relax and away from the stress awhile
but not ignore and neglected the stress and problem that having
so long holiday for me may be is not so suitable because is like empty to my life everyday...

Freedom

freedom? free from everything?
do anything we like without control?
no that is not the freedom we suppose have
there is a rule to control our freedom to achieve peaceful
the rule and law is set up to control human action
but what is funny now is even private thing also under control
such as the colour of cloth wear, hunger strike....
this all is privacy of personal activity but still under control
is that the freedom of talk and show unsatisfied also cannot be have
this all is just want to show the emotion to release the emotion also against law?
funny....why this all silent protest is unacceptable?
why last time the mogok is allowable and said so proudly that this all is right?
both also is silent protest, its doesn't hurt to anyone
this all is just a simple case just like a child silent protest
because he told he want to marry a girl he love
but doesn't get the APPROVED by his parent
this all is his personal thing but still under control.....

freedom given? NO
personal freedom? NO
freedom is losing....

listen to the HEArt

in real world there is a lot of things
even we see by own eyes
but is not the truth
even we listen it by our ears
but might not the real
all this might be a drama
a planning drama to someone
we can only use the heart to see and listen
feel it with our heart in differential
differential the real or image and true or false
if all the time evidence is prove but is not acceptable
believe in your heart......

Let go

time to let go but some of them still stubborn to maintain
keep on stand on their point to get back something that will not come back
is that really needed to stubborn on something that not belong?
time to face the decision and stand out of the aquarium
even is lose n the games but have to be gentlemen
there is no one will be winner forever in the games
just the people who are always prepare and work harder can get the chance to be the winner
if they still lose means the work they did is not enough and not yet well prepare
just let go and away from the stage of the games if they is no more support on us
may is time for think proper and fresh back all the mistake of the decision of judge if we lose in the competition
once be the loser only can rational stand outside and think of the mistake
only the people who really involve only can get know what is happened
let go all is no longer belong and try to think rational of the problem

Respect to our behavior

if a person never did anything that against to their heart
they must never have the feel of scare and confidence to themselves
once they did that, they are always live in the darkness because of their behavior
this all is the punishment of god to them
why they cannot think proper before they did something
even know the ending is won't be accept and will hurt to others
why the time they make the decision and did the things that hurt they just can see their good and their advance?
why cannot stand outside and stay rational to think for others also?
actually the most important thing to be a human is respect to ourselves
then only other will be respect to us
if we did something bad to others,even the they is no one punish to us
but the god will know, the punishment will come after just not the time only

Home

the distance to home was so far
but the feel distance of heart now is not far
that was so near to me to see you all
my fellow friends, my family and my lovely dog













but in few hours later i will be meet with you
going back for holiday for 2 month~~happy Holiday

Contradictions

contradictions is surrounding recently
don't know what is the problem is....
the calm of the heart lake is distributed
but still cannot get the fact that cause this
thinking and thinking...
still cannot get know what make the contradictions
that serious influence in sleep....
thinking and thinking...
exam?coffee? stress? homesick? miss？
want to sleep....but cannot get really in sleep....
contradictions......

sleep W@lk

when sleep, our brain should hundred percent in rest
that only can consider really sleep in deep
but sometimes the thing that we keep repeated in our mind
there will be a strong spirit can influence our sleep
even can hypothesis we do the thing that cannot happen in the real
is just a dream that really happened but without realize of the owner
a somnambulist did the thing without realize in their dream
may be something that cannot and not dare to do when in normal
when in dream everything is different...
because is dream they dare to do everything without scare...
as long as can realize it even in the dream...
they are somnambulating to complete the dream they cannot realize
if all they did is not against the legal is still acceptable
but still unbelievable in this....
how come this all can happened without realize by the owner....
unbelievable ~~~
may be the owner is too tired.....
is just like talk in dream and after dream cannot remember the dream at all
just the surrounding people is know the dream but not the owner.....

Arbitrary

arbitrarily~~~
how many people can really did this
most of the time we cannot do that
because of rational thinking make us hesitation
hovering at the crossroads, either is heart or rational
suddenly feel want to do something
but before do that i know the ending is get scolded
even is know what is going to happen but i still choose to do that
even is a small case i also don't rather to against the feel of my heart
arbitrarily, is so simple....just follow the heart...do when think want to do so...

SimPle

SIMPLE a word that everyone know
is that everyone know the real means it
many of us is chasing the "simple" life
actually we already have it
but we are adding others to decorate our life
without that all we still can live in happy
simple life....
the simple is the thing the harder for us to achieve
because the simple that we think is not that simple
most of the time we misunderstand the means of simple
just like....
a child is always unhappy even every substance that he want his parent can buy to him
but what actually needed him from his parent is just the care from them not all the material
may be just a sentences of care on him like "how was you today in school?"
is that very hard to get? hard to achieve?
yes may be..because some of them think that is not the care and not important
but for him is the most caring that he wanted from his parent rather than get all the substance that his parent buy to him...
simple...
life can be so simple, satisfied with what you have now....
because the things you have now is the simple that others wishing for long and never get before...appreciate with what we have now
the simple is it, the hardest it to achieve....

White H@ir

white hair?why they all come again?
oh...just realize is the season they come and visit
a lot of mission to cover and rushing to complete
there is a lot of things happened in order to overcome
problem of water resist, emotion control, and a lot......
rushing, rushing, rushing,thinking, thinking, thinking...
there is nothing except rushing and thinking for recently
but now all done just left to complete the 3 stages of the final war
suddenly slow down the step and fresh back
lifestyle is indescribably.....
inside the brain memory is try to get know how to overcome them
is like fantastic is almost like impossible and unbelievable how to across it
because of their visit start to slow down the step and look back the past
they prove that all this is really happen in a short while
are they the sign of knowledge from experiences?
are they sign of the mind getting mature?
are they signal of the brain is tired on working and thinking?
are they the sign of age getting old?
but for sure is after complete the 3 stages of the last war they will go